Oh January!

Twenty twelve has gotten off to a rocky start. January has been such a roller coaster, so many good things, but so many unexpected downsides as well.

Mama Bajza had to have her hip replaced at the beginning of January and is recovering amazingly well! But it was definitely a week of no sleep for me, not that I minded though :) Then, the Sunday following her surgery, I had to be admitted to the hospital because I had passed out during church (super embarrassing by the way) and the doctors just wanted to run precautionary tests. Then, that Thursday evening, Erik had to go to the hospital because I suspected an appendicitis and lo and behold, was right. He had an emergency appendectomy on Friday - so again, no sleep for me. Less than a week later I had to pack up our entire home to be moved out and ready to go into our very own home. However, the night before we were due to close on our home, we found out that the seller neglected to finish their final paperwork and closing got pushed back a whole week. So Erik and I are homeless at the moment - which is not bad, we get to be spoiled at my parents house for a week, however the whole process was exhausting and disappointing to say the least.

On the upside though, I am starting my sixth month of pregnancy now, and everything is going great. Baby is kicking up a storm daily, and I just adore watching the little one move his or her feet, elbows and hands all across my tummy. It is such a miracle to witness! I still can not believe that I have the privilege of being a mommy and so blessed to experience pregnancy. I feel so empowered and proud to be a woman. I am amazed by the strength and very nature of our bodies and so amazed by our perfect Creator who set this entire process in motion and is intricately involved in every moment. I feel so incredibly humbled.

2012 has started off a little crazy, but it is looking like one heck of a good year - soo many milestones to look forward too. Erik and I will be celebrating our one year anniversary of marriage! Crazy! Our first child's birthday will be sometime is May, or June (fingers crossed for May tho! Yikes) We will be homeowners and Lord only knows what else!

I can not wait :)

how i wonder who you are...

twinkle twinkle little star.... how i wonder who you are

So today I had my week 21 checkup and it was simply amazing. I got to see my son or daughter, all 11 ounces, moving around, being all cute like. In a lot of the sonograms the baby has one or both hands behind its head, just chillin' - funny thing is, that is exactly how Erik sleeps at night. So, like Daddy like Baby :) I could not be happier and could not be more anxious and excited to touch that adorable face for myself! My heart has never been more full, just bursting with gratitude and love!

Had a hard time getting the little gymnast to hold still long enough but check out that pot belly! 

Baby is even smiling for the camera here :)

teeny little feet and toes, that I can't wait to kiss!

first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes baby in a baby carriage...

At least that is how I think that grade school taunt goes... been a long time since I heard it. But that is right folks, we are having a baby, totally old news by now but good news nonetheless! Our little surprise has turned into my biggest blessing, and I haven't even met the little one yet. I am past the half way mark now, down to 138 days to go to be exact! My pregnancy has been awesome. I am one of those weirdos who absolutely loves being pregnant. I have not had a completely pain free pregnancy either. I hugged the porcelain king many a times. I learned that grapefruit is the best thing to throw up because it tastes the exact same coming up as it did going down - so I went through a couple pounds of those, actually more like 20 pounds! but who's counting, right? I also have had to deal with severe carpal tunnel syndrome, but eh! so I can't feel my hands 80% of the time, whatev! Most importantly I have had the absolute joy of feeling my baby, my sweet child, move! I felt flutters very early on for a first time mom, and the little booger has not stopped kicking me since about 18 weeks. And. I. love. every. single. nudge. and kick! I do not think there could be anything more amazing than feeling life itself within me. "Sweet, screaming, pooping life!"(Name the movie... anyone?!) Oh and by the way, we are not going to be finding out the sex of the baby, so yes, it will be referred to as a he, or she, or it! and no you can not talk me into finding out! I refuse :)


In all seriousness though, I simply can not wait to lock eyes with this baby for the very first time, to hold and touch their sweet little fingers and toes and chubby little thighs. I am so in love with this little stranger already, I can not imagine how much more that love will grow when we finally meet face to face. Erik is also stoked to be a daddy! He is going to be an amazing father. Erik is so unbelievably good to me, I don't know how I got so lucky. I love the block head and am so excited to raise his child (inside joke)! God has brought us so far from in the last eight years. Our story all started May 28, 2004 when Erik asked me if I would go to a movie with him, little did we know then that May 28, 2012 would be the due date of our first child!